I think religion is a big lie?

I believe in a higher power, I've narrowly escaped death far too many times for it to be luck or a coincidence. But "holy men" make me sick. You know; preachers, padres, imams,reverend. They claim to love god, and all his creations, but if you look at it they really don't. They preach that s are a abomination, but if god loves every1 and created all things then he created gays. They say that they are going to hell they are demons, but they used to say the same thing about blacks. But that gets swept under the rug. When some1 is being executed, priest are complicit in the ceromony, but thou shall not kill? Oh, and let's not forget the catholic child scandal. Rev. Manning is a troll, he is s upposed to be a man of god, but listen to his speeches on youtube, the kkk, and al qaeda bothe claim to be religious, and so is the ethnic cleansing being done by the IDF againt the palistinians. Religion is also used to justify otherwise unspeakable acts, like ham in the bible, and that was an excuse for slavery. I have become very disguted at religion because it seems to be a tool for con artist to control the gullable so is it a lie, in the sense that it is given to us by holy men?